Plain sham ...

Someone once told me, "If it's an external source that gives you self-esteem, you can be sure it's counterfeit. Trying to live up to society's standards is one of the most powerful contributors to a false sense of self-worth."

It actually makes sense since measuring up to a certain standard alters your character, making you not "you". It's altered, almost adulterated.... Everyone is just like a body of water. On the surface it may appear barren and uninteresting. Under it lies a lot, your "self". It takes a lot of courage to take a plunge or even just test the waters, if you know what I mean.. What I see is you are trying to fit in. So now, convince me you are not COUNTERFEIT.

Boohoo ...

Stars and rooftops...

Haven't been writing lately and I know it would be easier to blame it on work (big grin...). Not been thinking too much too since I went home and got back here. I go home every after my shift tired but the feeling that I have someone to go home to unloads half of my stress. There had been shuffling at the office and also new appointees were named, somehow pictures (perhaps people...) are now falling into the right places. From an observer's point, changes here are for the better... I still get to smile (or scoff...) on stupid customers who does not know how to use their computer, moreover configure it's settings (... and they hail their country as a superpower, hehehe). Just happy that I do not have hang-ups with anybody. I can sleep well and wake up without guilts. I have peace of mind and I just don't know why. All I know is I'm loved. I'll still be looking at stars on my rooftop on a clear (and even cloudy...) sky.